everything has its own limit.

where are all my motivations?

be patient is just not my thing anyway.

why must I be the one who compromise, why not others?

I've done what I should and being someone like me isn't cool at all.

the whole friendship thing is beyond my control,

fix it or not? well, it doesn't make any differences.

cz everyone got their very own perspectives.

No point in arguing anymore.

I've lost my faith in friendship.

I don't blame people for what they think about me.

And the way I reacted on certain aspects,

yes. Over-reacted, according to you.

You may blame me for being so.

You may oso hate me for being someone lidet.

But gosh! Be in my shoes sometimes? Will you?

 I loved being friends with you.

From the bottom of my heart, I loved you guys.

Mainly bcoz we can joke bout anything,

playing around without caring what will happen next..

Like there is no tomorrow.

The most important thing I've found being friends with you guys..

MYSELF.

But being myself comfortably is another story.

Somehow, things that you said really did offended my feelings.

And it hurts from time to time.

Maybe you din't realize, maybe you din't even care.

Bcoz I did not voice out my feelings.

Doesn't mean it is right.

Doesn't mean it is fine.

If by making fun of one's sensitive part is fun,

seriously, I doubt that we are even friends at all.

As friends, we do care bout each other's feelings.

Sadly, I couldn't feel it. Nothing. No.

And this is not the first time Im feeling this way.

I do admit sometimes I take things very seriously,

and that is me. I couldn't handle my own emotions well.

Sorry if I did offended all.

I know you guys really treated me as a very close friend,

and thats why you guys thought that it is ok to tease,

cz I could have accepted it in a friendly way.

Yes. I did. But not all the time.

And Im not a clown.

I am a human being and I do have feelings.

I am not a wood or a stone,

everytime you guys tease me, I feel pain inside.

Eventhough I know you guys dun really mean it.

And sorry to disappoint you,

afterall, I am a girl.

At least, some respects.

Please.

Maybe you think that its just a small matter,

and why would I take it as if it was a big thing?

Hmmph, maybe I had enough of all these teasing.

All these years, Im done with all these.

Done with all the disappointments.

If you guys weren't my friends,

seriously, I wouldn't have shown temper.

yes, I did. and it was stupidity.

I wouldn't even give a fuck.

Just bcoz I care alot, of what you guys thought.

Sadly, you guys don't understand.

Sorry for being rude.

Sorry for creating a false image of what I used to be.

You don't know me. So don't judge.

Lastly,

I wanna apologize to all and those it may concern.

Limitations are vital, crucial at time.

Its not like what you think is correct, then it is.

Not all.