what i want to say..

People always say,

Life is short,

pray hard.
Play hard.


Whatever.

What happens when I die?

Will I still be able to sense my presence?

Or maybe, be able to feel the world again?
Will I lose all my memories?

I don't know. I doubt that anyone does.

Sometimes, the word death comes across my mind.
And NO, Im not afraid of dying or what.


Death is the only certain thing.
Everyone will eventually die.
When or how? Doesn't really matter.
Cause we don't know.


I've actually listed 10 things I wanna do before I bid farewell to the world.


Tattoo.
I always wanted one on my ankle.

Go bald.
I find a girl being bald is smtg cool.
well, you may laugh at me.
But I ain't gonna change my view.

Stay under a bridge for at least a day.
I wanna know how it feels to be a homeless person.
Adventurous? Nope. I love nature.

Watch live porn.
 Thailand wait for me!
Curiosity killed the cat!
* no pics are allowed to be displayed here*


Swimming during winter.
It will definately be somewhere out of Malaysia.
Anyone?

Experience live opera in Vienna.
Vienna has always been my fav country to visit.
the sound of music.

Buy a pistol.
So that I can kill anyone I hate.
Nah. This is a joke and I ain't talking about counter strike.
Somehow I find handling a gun is awesome.

and the remaining of the list goes on..


I haven't thought of any special ones yet.
Maybe when time goes by, the list changes as well.


Frankly, I do not believe in eternity.
Forever is far too long and only people who believes in fairytale does.
Mind you, fairytale do not exist!


Life is short. 
The world is too huge for me to explore.
Things who are actually so near me, and yet I've overseen it.
Abandoned it, demolished it and I did not even notice sometimes.


My eyes were blinded before.
And then the someone revealed my sight.
Showing me the meaning of being alive.
Is so wonderful. It could be God.


I dare not leave the world just like that.
There are so many things that I haven't even try.


I wanna feel love. more love.
Very much.
Without love, Im just another piece of dead body on the road.
Im not saying that nobody loves me or what,
just that, sometimes I do feel very very alone.
Its like I will be talking to myself,
Christina once told me that I shouldn't continue being like this,
that I should consult a doctor one day.
Seriously, I think Im fine, really.
If not I wouldn't even realize all these things coming.


Oh yea, and I love to sing.
Doesn't make me a great singer.
I just love to sing, yea as a hobby.
Singing somehow expresses my own feelings.
The lyrics and the melody combines well,
and tada! Thats a song already!


Do you know that Mindy is so good in piano?
Jerry, he excels in both guitar and singing.
There are so many talented people here around us and yet,
we did not realize.


I seriously dunno why am I typing all these.
Maybe I just feel like saying everything out.
Its so hard to keep everything to yourself you know.
Its like a balloon waiting to explode anytime.


It feels good to actually spill everything out.
and till then..


bye.