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I am feeling a little devastated, a little sad and emotional.

Things didn't turned out as smooth as I thought.

I know sometimes there are certain things beyond control,

and I simply can't change things with one hand, or both.

Maybe I was being unreasonable, for wanting it my way.

Never did I thought about the full picture.

Like beyond what is in my mind.

Seriously, I swear I have never thought things will end up this way.

Definitely not the way I see it now.

But what can I do?

I can't lie. I don't want to.

Is it wrong to pursue what I really wanted?

Without hurting anybody along the way? Guess not.

Clearly, I did bad things that is reflecting how bad a person I am.

I am not as good as I used to be.

I don't blame people for not understanding me.

For I did not show them the missing pages in the book.

Why am I expecting them to know what I am having in mind?

I am so selfish. I feel sad.

I should probably shut the fuck up and move on.

For there are things that worth me treasuring than the past.

Future.

I am sorry.

 

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