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Hi world.

How are you doing?

Still turning huh?

Me?

I am just fine.

Being stuck in the middle of not fine and very fine, just fine :)

I had a bad dream. They are back, haunting me.

Guess my less awesome piece of mind is giving me a tequila shot.

Bang! And that explains my mini heart attack.

Ok, maybe not utterly, but I am feeling a lil blue in recent times.

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I just moved from 21st floor to 15th floor.

To my new room in the city.

I thought it was something that I will definitely dance about,

but it was not as excited as before.

The room was fine. Cozy.

Pool-view, next to a mall and feeling secure.

I am still struggling with sorting clothes.

Well, I am like any other girls, having a first world problem with clothes.

But I know that was not the main reason why I am blue.

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 Everything seemed fine.

When I first moved to the city, I was a hard-as-nails.

But I figured it ain't easy as it seemed to be.

I am becoming irresolute and vacillating.

I sort of found a job.

Somewhere ideal for me to start my career as an adverstising sales exe.

But the thing is, they are still processing with my documents and stuff.

What if they don't want me anymore?

What should I do? 

I might sound easily affected, lack of confidence, 

blah blah blah...

But I can't lay back when things aren't completely done and accustomed.

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I am feeling insecure.

In my genuine opinion,

insecurity ultimately will leads to a few negative sides.

Be it insomnia, lack of confidence in self or over thinking.

They say, Over thinking kills.

I totally agree.

I am not gonna be back to the three-years-ago serena.

I am different now. 

I am awesome.

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So a word to me myself,

stop thinking too much.

Sleep.

P/s: Dear Doinky,

Thanks for everything.

You're the best.

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